23:25

QF 098

Brisbane

J

18

Qantas Airways

Depart 23:19

My princess has left for Australia, no more chatting, no more video conferencing  :(

I'm sure you're gonna have a great time princess remember to take lots of photos to show me :) You must add oil in ure work and have a wonderful time, ill try to as well, although ill be missing you as my heart aches.

Lovee yaaa sooo much

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We're gonna be together forever!!!!!!

-Allister

It's amazing how much you can recollect on in the shower, it must be one of the only times when i can truely reflect on the accounts of the day, the ups and the downs, the victories and defeats. As i sit in my room now i realise I have never actually sat down to describe it, possibly i take it for granted, but i would at least like to have some account of wat my university room use to be like for future reference so ill put it here for now 

A room with 3 walls, the forth being a glass door covered by beige and opaque curtains, the table is littered with accessories used throughout the day, a comb sits idly waiting to be used, a clock counts the seconds by slowly trickling away the sands of time. It is clustered yet comfortable, snow globes, calenders happy man wobbling back and forth. My laptop rests dead centre of the table, my connection to the rest of the world, my gateway to the life i love. A blocked fireplace lays to the left, upon the mantlepiece, bor bor, star jar, a clock that has stopped working, two dolls: pink and blue kiki and lala, to remind me of her... origami cranes photo holders. Photos and posters are arranged neatly across the walls, motivational some, pictures of me and Lucia, on an elephant, beside the habour, on our first date. thats it for now...

After the torment of the last week or so, i finally have a night of break before i must start working again, it is a hard life sometimes, i would like to say it as a fruitful experience. Its strange that life can mean so many things, it can mean everything, yet it can mean nothing, you can give it, yet you can lose it, you can fight for it, yet you can ignore it. I believe that in this world there are just some things that are worth fighting for, there are even things worth dying for, but this says nothing of my expectations of values. I used the analogy life is not a book, its a diary today, you choose your own path in life, be it enrichment or enjoyment everyone chooses wat they want. I believe if everyone was slightly more sympathic the world would be a better place, but humans have flaws, just as i have, I am quick to judge, yet slow to accept, quick to start, but slow to finish.

I feel as if i view the world differently than that wat i use to, I am reluctant to meet new people, but always willing to help, cautious during social situations yet quick to offend. Possibly, as i have said before that i dont believe in "artificial" friendships I lack the companionship which i use to have. However I am content, I am even happy, which is nothing to do with my current dilmma, somethings are worth working for, somethings are worth fighting for, somethings are worth dying for. Thank you so much Lucia for always being there for me, ill fight forever if thats wat it takes... Is my smile used to cover my loneliness here? I feel happy yet forsaken. "because when the lights are out, I am always alone..............."

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-Allister

I have come to it, my path my goal, I have found my way and im going to pursue it...

its late, its dark, time to sleep,

more later

loveee ya Lucia

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-Allister

I loveeee yaaaaa Lucia just a month left till i come baack!

muaaaaaaaa

-Allister

Welcome.

Welcome back to my xanga, it been a while hasn it? Around 4 months since I last xangaed, my life hasn changed considerably but I have had some tremendously fascinating experiences that I will remember for the rest of my life. But?I will leave that for a while, for the latter part of this post, as I lay in bed awake last night, as I prayed thoughts rushed through my mind, thoughts of realization possibly?or maybe just a new perception on life that I have discovered leaving me confused, lost and insecure. And that is why now I wish to share my thoughts on he meaning of life?my thoughts and views regarding the question which plagues everyone mind in some point in time along the path we call life. So welcome back, welcome to Allister Xanga REBIRTH

The Meaning Of Life

What is the meaning of life? A million questions, a million answers, a million truths?even more deceptions. As suggested by many people and I myself am a strong believer of, the meaning of life is to be happy, but happiness comes in many states forms and manifestations.

Happy (h p )
adj. hap搆i搪r, hap搆i搪st - Enjoying, showing, or marked by pleasure, satisfaction, or joy.

What makes us happy then? As the dictionary definition suggests pleasure, satisfaction and joy are the keys to happiness, for me at least these 3 keys can be gained from one source, one source that is more than sufficient to supply me with all the appiness?I could ever want, of course I speak of my one and only Love Lucia (hiiii honey shout out too yaaaa) who will always be there to offer me support through good times or bad till death do us part. She gives me the ultimate happiness and that is an undeniable fact in my opinion, something that I will be true to the rest of my life. Having said that though, there are still conflicts, as a student studying economics we are taught that humans are rational beings, they optimize their utility or happiness subject to their constraints. Ive just learnt about intertemporal choices which involves how choices are made across time. It is said that there is a relationship between the number of years someone engages in education and the amount of earnings (s)he will receive in the future. Through econometrics I have learnt for a sample taken, that for one extra year of education you only gain around 20 pounds in monthly salary. So is engaging in one extra year of education really beneficial in improving our happiness? There seems to be a general consensus that by gaining higher education and improving ones self by earning more in the future you will be better off, but is this truly happiness? A rational economic agent should try to maximize his happiness under economic principles?but clearly for me I would be happier spending time in Hong Kong with Lucia than going to a land far away and foreign to study just to gain an extra 20 or so pounds in monthly salary is it really worth it? Does money make the world go round? The concept of working for the future, do too many take it for granted?

We live in a world of greed, a world where who you are and what you are is determined purely upon the amount of power you possess a factor directly related to how much money you have in your possession, if the world itself and its human inhabitants weren all so self centered then maybe it wouldn have to be this way. But it is true that I also have these obsessions, obsessions rooted so deeply because of who I am and who I have grown up to be. I have high ambitions for myself, ambitions which I sure are common among many people who roam freely in this earth. However, until last night I never questioned if these ambitions were those I set for myself to make myself happy or are they just predetermined by other factors which I have grown up to believe in. I was stuck suddenly when I was informed that this is my last summer, a declaration to the end of my youth never again will I be able to just lie in bed for days on end, do the things I want to do, spend the entire 2 months on end just doing the things I want to do. The term summer vacation will cease to exists for me and all that will be left will be the hours upon hours of work and a weekend of enjoyment to keep me going. Is this how I really how I want to spend the rest of my life? Is this how I will attain my happiness and achieve the meaning of life? Many things are ambiguous in life how to future will be what will happen, but what I know for sure is that during the last summer holiday I was the happiest Ie ever been.

The summer of 2003, a holiday to remember, filled with those of dreams and fantasies, a princess so sweet and fine, and me, just me, the one who use to be alone all the time. I will never forget the summer of 03, 2 holidays, 2 people in love with a flame, so strong that passion paved the lane. Since the day I arrived from the land far away there was not one moment when I wished I was elsewhere. To be so close to my love Lucia was so great, I had been longing it from the day I left in Easter, tremendous feelings bound up inside were able to escape, to show the happiness inside. There was not a day that I didn see my love, through typhoons and storms I did my best to come. It is a strange sensation to be reunited with the one you love, although I use to spend countless hours video conferencing with her during the last term of year 1 there are certain things that just aren the same on video, the be able to feel her, smell her and hear her in person is so much better and shouldn be taken for granted for. I felt like I was finally home to be back in the arms of Lucia, to see her smile J

We went on 2 holidays together, the first to Phuket, Thailand a wonderful experience, for those of you who have never been to Phuket, go visit! It really nice there white sands, spectacular views, breath taking surroundings. To be able to wake up and see my sweetheart straight away was so great, spending quality time with her and her family, eating breakfast, having lunch, having dinner, going places, going swimming, riding elephants, watching shows, falling asleep on buses, eating kfc late at night, Thai massages, hugging under water, kissing under water, walking on the beach, eating hot pot, buying fruit, feeding elephants, riding buffalos, going shopping, avoiding trans.., catching planes, reading harry potter, getting mossy bites, shooing flies away, riding bikes, getting bored, getting excited there were just so many memories that I will keep deep inside me for the rest of my life, to cheer me up when I down. The next trip Macau, another fruitful experience, although only 2 days 1 night, another new experience new dimensions, from doing some type of bungee jumping to going to a casino for my first time it was another special and great holiday. None of this would have been possible if it weren for my love Lucia, I love her dearly, her family has taken me in as one of their own, I have another family now, how great it is to be able to eat dinner, chat, have yum cha, help out at the Kumon centre, but last but not least spend all the time I have with Lucia, this summer was truly one to remember, the summer where I was always happy because of the one I loved was always by my side.

Thank You so much Lucia, I love you dearly, thank you for everything

HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY ANNIVERSARY

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Wee gonna be together forever!

-Allister

PS it is not lame to post lyrics to express yourself, however since my post is quite long as it is?I think Il pass on this one, ooo leave me comments on anything u wanna voice out J